Why did you do your boudoir photo shoot?
I won Kat’s Giveaway! I wanted to enter because of my medical condition and when I look in the mirror, all I see is my disease. I wanted to feel good about myself, even though I have no control over what is happening to my body and my mind.
What was your favorite part of your session?
Watching myself go from nervous to excited. At my wardrobe consultation I was really nervous, not knowing what to wear to help me feel good and sexy, but Kat had me the whole time. When I finally arrived the day of my photo shoot, I was still a bit anxious – but excited.
What did doing this shoot do for your self-confidence, self-worth and self-image? Tell me your story.
Let me start by giving you a little background about me. I suffer from a disease called Cushing syndrome, which occurs when your body has too much of the hormone cortisol over time. This can happen when you take certain steroid medications, but in my case, it’s because I have a tumor on my pituitary that prompts my body to produce too much cortisol.
I had surgery to remove the tumor, and for a short period I felt good and healthy. But then my tumor came back. (we named it Frank.) Frank brings with him all of the hallmark signs of Cushing syndrome -a fatty hump between your shoulders, a rounded face, and pink or purple stretch marks on your skin. Cushing syndrome can also result in high blood pressure, bone loss and, on occasion, type 2 diabetes.
So now that you know a little bit about my health issues. I can tell you how challenging it is to wake up one day and not look like yourself. It’s definitely something I struggle with every day. Not that I think I’m ugly, because I’m reminded all the time by people that love me, and by strangers, how beautiful I am. But there’s a difference between thinking you’re ugly and feeling ugly. I know many people can feel like this for a numerous reasons.
Winning this photoshoot helped me in a number of ways. the experience helped me see that just because my body may not look the same doesn’t mean I can’t feel beautiful and have confidence.